those lovely holidays

i am yet another one of those disgruntled, unhappy shoppers you see standing in line the day before christmas, shooting daggers from their eyes.
im kind of over christmas. this year didnt seem like christmas at all. it was kind of bizzare. xmas is really for little kids and familys that drink. (my family, for the most part, is not part of that second group. i think we would all have a little more fun if we were).
SO in that lovely vein, here are my complaints with the holiday season. in no particular order because i'll probably just randomly think of them.

-ridiculous shopping thats starts before thanksgiving now. seriously.
-people. now, i usually hate people, but a lot of people (myself being included sometimes) get a special kind of stupid around the holidays. like they forget how to walk in a store, or act in a crowd. it drives me crazy.
-drivers. oh my dear GOD. admittedly, it wasnt as bad this year because it didnt snow, but people just get dumb. take the first open spot you see, because you arent going to get anything thats all that close. and if you are able-bodied, then leave the close spots for those who arent.
-the movies. everything seems to have an upbeat ending, and someone finds their christmas spirit. suck on that. i know i didnt find my christmas spirit this year. and there are a few that make me cry (especially when im not home from school yet). ugh, and even worse are the ones i HAAATE. i actually hate "A Christmas Story". i hate it. really. the kid annoys me and i hope he shoots his eye out. the only good parts of that movie is the kid who licks the pole and gets stuck and the leg lamp. also, "It's A Wonderful Life" is okay... but zuzu's voice grates my nerves. but they both get over-played before christmas even comes.
-the hype. i guess this comes back to me not finding my xmas spirit. for our family, the holidays havent really been all that good to us as of the last few years. as much as i would like to believe in xmas miracles, i have yet to see one that wasnt written for a made for tv movie with some random semi-celebrity. for those who dont know, im not religious. my parents are different religions, so we never went to church and my sister and i arent baptized. (::shock face!:: for some people, i know). However, i used to find xmas really fun, even after we stopped getting toys and such. after i went to college, i was usually happy to be home (it comes in phases) and actually enjoyed the company of my family. this year there are no warm fuzzy feelings... am i jaded?
and lastly, the blatant commercialism i 'buy' into every year (heh heh, i made a pun). as michael from the office puts it so nicely, a present is a physical thing you can touch and show people and say, i love you this many dollars worth. (thats paraphrased...) unfortunately im not nearly as crafty as i thought i was, and i never have time to make anything for anyone. i mean, my freshman year at sfsu, everyone got bottles of ocean because i was poor and had mini water bottles. thats about as far as my craft goes. i never know what to get anyone, so i end up getting things that they will probably never use, or get that general nail-kit gift for one of my female relatives (erin, if you read this, i actually got that for you though, it was purposeful). its kind of lame, and i feel even lamer (or a lamer... hah) for going along with it. i try to get things that people actually want (netflix subscriptions are THE BEST) but im pretty sure i get things that dont really have a purpose or cant be used (like the ginormous ornament i got my mom. i thought they were much smaller).

so these are my issues. i listened to christmas music to get myself all spirited up... no luck.
i dont know. i guess it just wasnt a christmas-y kind of year.